The Right Time

Once one gets married, the next question is, 'so when are you going to have a baby?' It seems that everyone asks me that and I have to admit, I ask myself that everyday. How do I determine when the right time is? I can look at my finances and talk with others and pray, but after all of that, how do I know? And if I determine that this particular month is going to be the right time for me, what if at that time I can't get pregnant?

I don't know how to determine it. I do know that I feel like preventing pregnancy is not for me, not that I want to have a child each month until I go into menopause. It's just that who am I to determine when is the best time? I am healthy. I am married. My husband and I want lots of children. We are financially stable. We even have children's room in our house full of toys with bunk beds. And when I think about all of this, I think, yes I am ready and then comes in the questions like- how will I keep a full time job and have young children? Is that right for my family? For my husband and I?

I think about this a lot. I don't have an answer. I just am hoping to have faith about it. When I speak to older people, it seems the greatest joy for each older person (or the greatest pain) is their children. Life is all about family.

My life right now is all about my husband. I can only imagine that having children will be the greatest experience in life and it is something that I must give over to God. There's too many questions that I will not be able to answer and to many concerns that cannot be guaranteed. I am going to continue to think about it and continue to pray.

thanksgiving

We had such a great Thanksgiving. My mom and Michael's parents were with us. We spent the whole weekend eating and laughing. All of us had so much to be thankful for. I cooked my first turkey (it was a little dry so next year I am not going to stuff it). My mom is back in the house I grew up in and it is so beautiful. Michael's parents are doing well on Mercer Island and are thankful for their new daughter in law. I am in such a great time in my life and am so excited to have someone to share everything with.

Cosmic Collisions

I went to see Cosmic Collisions- the new show at OMSI. It was pretty good, I expect so much from entertainment now that I am not impressed that easily. However, after the show, the scientist stood up and talked about astroids hitting the earth and how the impact killed the dinosours. And then he made a slight comment about how there could be another collision in 2029. I dismissed it and left the show thinking about how it was a pretty good show on how our planet was created and how our moon was created.

Tonight while Michael and I were talking, I remembered what the scientist said about the astroid. So I googled- 2029 Astroid. Already 305,000 websites on it. Appraently on April 13th, 2029 an astroid will be sliding in between our earth and our moon. Scientist believe it will miss the earth but Nasa says that there is still a 1 in 60 chance it will collide. 1 in 60? Are you kidding me? That's pretty close. Anyway, I thought this was so interesting. Michael and I already have a date set for that night- to sit out in our backyard and watch the sky.

Our New and Somewhat Familiar Life

We married on September 15th in Portland Oregon. We had a blast at our Wedding and are now settling into what we hope to be for the rest of our lives- life together. It's not that different being married. Yea, we have the occasional clothing item left on the floor, we also have to buy food for two people instead of one, we must keep each other informed on our schedules, o yea, and we get to have sex which is God's great gift for relationships. But other than that, it's pretty much the same. I still wake up and wonder why I don't have perfectly clear skin, Michael still works his butt off at his job, there is less and less time to get everything done, and my drive to work still takes me just as long as it did when I was single. We talk about our faith in God (which is super nice to have someone to do that with), we go for walks, we eat out occasionally and we trade off putting away the dishes. All in all, I like being married. I like it a lot more than being single (although it isn't all that different).