Children

I’ve never given much thought to having children. I’ve been so preoccupied (over 30 years) with whether or not I’d ever get married that I didn’t put much thought into anything else. Now that I am married to my best friend (especially after our late night talk last night), I think about children a lot.

 

I have come full circle in my thoughts on children. I knew I always wanted children but have been scared at having them and scared of all the other things that come with them, things like the cost of them, my ability (or inability) to be a good parent, how messy they are etc. etc. I think differently now. About a year ago I started watching shows on TV about large families. I was amazed at families like John and Kate + 8 and the Duggar family. Watching those shows has really taught me what joy a child and children can be.

 

Michael and I got married on September 15, 2007. We used natural birth control for about 2 months and as I started thinking about it, the more and more concerned I became with the reasoning of why we considered ourselves not ready for children. Not only that, but I realized how much I wanted them. We started talking about it a lot and decided that we didn’t want to prevent a pregnancy if that so happened.  It’s been about 6 months now and we’re not pregnant.

 

Lately, I’ve been giving more and more thought to adoption. I could see us adopting at some point, even if/when we have our biological children. Also, I feel really comfortable with not having our own children (if that so happens) and then we would definitely adopt. There are children who need a home. Our home is in need of children. Anyway, I really think about children a lot now.